Please please take care of yourself, I saw that post about you feeling like passing out. I know shit can be stressful but there's always time for food
I wish it was just a stress issue haha after I shower I always feel lightheaded because of some physical issue–whether it be just a b12 deficiency, POTS, or postural hypotension–combined with the hot water/steam. I physically cant stand too long or sit up too quickly without feeling dizzy as hell and in cases where I stand up too long (typically ~30 minutes is my limit) I faint. It sucks not having anywhere to sit in the bathroom anymore besides the floor so I just Dont Sit. And then I don’t eat until after my shower which makes it worse and we have no breakfast foods in the room and I cant risk walking or biking and exerting the little energy I have going to the dining hall
It’s been an issue for years, the worst episodes happened in middle school where 1) in my 7th grade chorus class my teacher made us stand on the stands the whole period (40 minutes) and this was early in the morning and I hadn’t eaten breakfast that day, so I pretended to tie my shoe every time I had to sit and i just ended up going down right at the end of class for like…. 5 seconds and then i was back. It was terrifying,,, what 12 year old knows what to do when their vision is blotchy and their ears are ringing (this was before I developed tinnitus agxkshfshjfns) and 2) in 8th grade they didnt let students go to their lockers or first period classes until 7:45 (the final bell rang at 7:57) and on my dads days when I didnt take the bus, hed drop me off at like 7:10 so he could go to work. We had to sit on the floor or stand because of course theres no where to sit. I was yelled at once on a different day for sitting at the empty front desk chair (the teacher didnt sit in it until she shoo’d me off. Bitch). So of course I’m standing for a whole ass 40 minutes and by the time the time to get my stuff comes I’m stumbling down the hall in a crowd of kids with my vision spotting and my ears ringing again and when I turn the hallway corner, I can make out the vague shape of a trash can and stumble into it as my vision got worse and then 5 steps later I reach my locker, touch my lock, and I drop the the floor. Raquel showed up bc her locker was close to mine and she got my stuff for me and brought me to first period italian, which we had together. The sub noticed I was pale as fuck and told me to go to the nurse when I could walk again and by the time I got to the nurse, it was like nothing happened so I DUNNO LOL
When I asked my doctor about it he didnt really say anything, just that it was a hereditary issue because my mom and grandpa both have/had it. I want to go back to the doctor and see what it is because I’m about ready to just say fuck it and get a wheelchair so I can sit down for once


